The Beautiful Recovery

Just the ramblings of a girl called Erin on the long and bumpy road to a beautiful recovery

Anonymous asked: 20,31

20) Worried and confused about something important to you?
I am worried about my AS results and failing them all.


31) Believe in God/belong to a religion of your own free will?
I am agnostic leaning towards atheism, but I do like the teachings of Buddha

Anonymous asked: 70

70) Sleep naked?
No…

Anonymous asked: 6, 13, 15, 26, 28, 33, 36, 55, 59?

6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting?
Yes, I watched the entire Inbetweeners series in one sitting and I regret nothing

13) Suicidal?
From time to time

15) Avoiding someone?
Not since school ended.

26) Go out drinking?
No I don’t actually, I have never actually drank alcohol!

28) Smoke weed?
Nope never (gosh, I sound dreadfully boring…)

33) Agree that self-harm numbs emotional pain?
I wouldn’t say that it numbs pain, and certainly not long term but I suppose everyone is different but for me personally it doesn’t.

36) Think things will get better?
Yes, I actually do, which is quite a liberating feeling.

55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you?
Honestly? I don’t think that I could. The same goes for friends that have deeply hurt me, I find it hard to trust people so when they hurt me I have trouble truly forgiving them

59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse?
Yes, especially alcohol because it is so easy to become addicted to, one glass to calm the nerves, next time one isn’t enough so maybe another. Etc, and it is encouraged within society and is easy to get hold of.

I'll answer 100% honestly.

  • Have you ever:
  • 1) Self-harmed?
  • 2) Gotten into a real fight?
  • 3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed?
  • 4) Tried to commit suicide?
  • 5) Had to lie to everyone about how you felt?
  • 6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting?
  • 7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble?
  • 8) Accused someone of using you?
  • 9) Shoplifted?
  • 10) Gotten drunk/high?
  • 11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing?
  • 12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game?
  • Right now, are you:
  • 13) Suicidal?
  • 14) Bored?
  • 15) Avoiding someone?
  • 16) Avoiding some task?
  • 17) Depressed?
  • 18) Crying?
  • 19) Annoyed with a friend?
  • 20) Worried and confused about something important to you?
  • Do you:
  • 21) Get depressed easily?
  • 22) Get jealous/envious easily?
  • 23) Feel like listening to music can take your mind off things?
  • 24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot?
  • 25) Try hard in all your classes at school?
  • 26) Go out drinking?
  • 27) Smoke cigarettes?
  • 28) Smoke weed?
  • 29) Do any hard drugs?
  • 30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, why?
  • 31) Believe in God/belong to a religion of your own free will?
  • 32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them?
  • 33) Agree that self-harm numbs emotional pain?
  • 34) Believe people deserve second chances?
  • 36) Think things will get better?
  • 37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished?
  • 38) Judge people who think differently to you?
  • Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:
  • 39) Long hair or short hair?
  • 40) Nice smile or nice abs?
  • 42) Shy or open?
  • 43) Eyes or body?
  • 44) Religious or non-religious?
  • 45) Caring or non-restricting of you?
  • 47) Piercings or no piercings?
  • 48) Tattoos or no tattoos?
  • 49) Quiet stay-at-home type or party type?
  • 50) Has friends you get along with or has parents you get along with?
  • Would you:
  • 51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk?
  • 52) Smoke weed?
  • 53) Smoke cigarettes?
  • 54) Get even with someone who betrayed you?
  • 55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you?
  • 56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you?
  • 57) Keep your faith no matter what?
  • 58) Join a band as a part-time activity?
  • 59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse?
  • 60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone goes against them?
  • 61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what it's like?
  • 62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family?
  • 63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online?
  • 64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported?
  • 66) Not like someone simply because your friend didn't like them?
  • 67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems?
  • 68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes?
  • 69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes, then which part of you?
  • 70) Sleep naked?

Today

So this morning I was at the hospital to see the Doctor about my bones and afterwards I met up with my beautiful friend today in Starbucks and then we went around town. It was just so love to see her again! I have missed her so much.

I bought myself more vegan marshmallows and a bag of chia seeds because they are supposed to be a superfood and full of loads of nutrients etc, plus they taste rather nice!

Also, I was weighed today and I don’t want to restrict as a result! Major win in my opinion because normally when I get weighed I then relapse but no, I went out with my friend and got a coffee from Starbucks! No regrets, just freedom!

Much Love

Erin xxx

I was not born to be skinny. I was born to live.

—Erin (the-beautiful-recovery)

(Source: the-beautiful-recovery)

Anonymous asked: How are things going with food?

They are going okay I think, thank you for asking :) xxx

the-rise-of-ellie-may:

hedgehog-goulash7:

preludes-and-prufrock:

awwdish:

thestraggletag:

thestraggletag:

submariet:

VAN EYCK

I lost it at the end.

Okay, I had to check out the Van Eyck thing. I was a bit in denial because, come on, every single person can’t look like President Putin!

There are no words to describe how wrong I was.

Reblogging this for my art history class this semester

buwhahaha

The art historian in me had to reblog this.

This is so accurate it hurts

(Source: cheekygeekymonkey)

choosinglifein-colour:

Just a reminder that less does not equal healthy.

The low-calorie option is not necessarily the healthiest. Your body needs calories. Calories give us life. Calories are not bad.

(via the-rise-of-ellie-may)

startingtoflyy:

I have a disease that makes me WANT to starve myself to death. Do you realise how fucked up that is? It takes over your personality, your body, your mind. It makes you destroy yourself. 

People need to realise how serious it is. It’s not something to joke about, it’s not something to desire. 

(via letgotolovelife)

anamelessnobody asked: This is the Amazing Person Award! Once you are given this award you are supposed to paste it in the ask of eight different people, who, in your opinion, deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it’s sweet to know someone thinks you’re amazing inside and outside.

Thank you! xxx

ohawkguy:

the notebook problem: you see a notebook. you want to buy the notebook. but you know you have like TEN OTHER NOTEBOOKS. most which are STILL EMPTY. you don’t need to notebook. you’re probably not gonna use the notebook anyway. what’s the point? DONT BUY THE NOTEBOOK. you buy the notebook.

(via definingsydney)