The Beautiful Recovery

Just the ramblings of a girl called Erin on the long and bumpy road to a beautiful recovery

I hate the chronic feeling of emptiness, which people with BPD have. I’m so bored. I don’t know what to do and I also don’t wanna do anything. It makes me so confused. I’m crying, but not because I’m feeling sad, it’s because I’m feeling so empty.

—An empty feeling Borderline (via another-girl-interruptedx)

First Day on the Job!

So today was my first day working in the charity shop and I absolutely loved it! I even found a few pretty bits that I am going to buy during my next shift because I have to wait 24 before I can buy them (damn it!)

My breakfast was absolutely lovely this morning, I had Cinnamon Spiced Apple and Vanilla Overnight Oats, it was so refreshing and delicious.

Although I must admit that because I was on my feet for so long I did have a bit of a bad dizzy spell and feel quite ill but hopefully it will get easier.

Much Love

Erin xxx

Anonymous asked: Could you send some love to mymosaicrecovery she's been struggling lately

Okay, everyone, send some love and support her way xxx

Anonymous asked: Whenever someone comes up to try and hug me I stick out my hand for a handshake instead. If they try and push my hand away to hug me I back up and say no no I insist with a more serious look and tone. If they still have yet to catch the hint I just say please do not touch me I don't like it.

That idea is pure genius!!!! I will just make it my thing that I only shake hands! Thank you so much, you really don’t know how much that means to me xxxx

Anonymous asked: You could try to stay out of her way when the old woman is hugging everyone, or say really politely "sorry would you mind not touching me?" Or something? Good luck xx

I may try and avoid her like the plague, maybe she won’t do it this time and I am being a little paranoid etc but thank you lovely! xxx

Anonymous asked: Are you still at school?

I will be going into my last year in September but at the moment I am on my summer holidays xxx

anxious-erin asked: I love your name ;)

Well that is because only the best people are called Erin :’) haha xxx

Anonymous asked: What woman do you hope isn't there?

There is an older woman there who insists on hugging and kissing everyone when she sees them and that really distresses me. I don’t like people touching me except my immediate family and some of my friends, it makes me really uncomfortable. I sort of freeze up and go rigid. I know it sounds daft and petty but I don’t know how to say ‘Do Not Touch Me’ without sounding rude or nasty because she obviously does it because she sees it as kind etc xxx